I just wanted to take a moment and talk about the ending of this year, it currently being 9 am on the last day of 2018. Let me just say, the main feeling I am having as it ends is gratefulness.
I had a meeting with my boss this morning. She told me, “Wow, you have had a changing year. Nothing will like, ever be the same now.”
Of course, that change would not have happened if it was not for her and her amazing outreach, and her deciding to bring me on as a mural designer.
My schedule is flexible, meaning I get to work on my dream of being a concept artist daily, and have had a great opportunity/ experience working with Reim Entertainment (more on this in 2019, I promise).
I was in Wal-Mart yesterday, and thought back to me and the guy first walking through it just after we had signed the lease to our new apartment. I was terrified, unsure if I had steady income. We had to pick and chose what we bought, even a replacement shower curtain becoming too much of a luxury. Yesterday, I went in buying, knowing I had more money coming in.
I was able to work in a tea shop for a bit and was able to quit without much worry when it was not working for me anymore.
I was able to buy the guy a nice sound system for Christmas.
I was able to spend the holiday with my immediate family.
I reconnected with my best friend.
I have made a point to take better care of myself and know what works best for my body.
I drove over 14 hours for two days in a row, cross country, with car full, unable to see out my mirrors to arrive in sunny L.A. without a scratch.
Most of all, I can proudly say I am a full-time artist living and working in California. This year has not been without it struggles. Stress, anxiety, depression have all reared their ugly heads on top of financial issues and a lot of uncertainty, but that being said—well, all the risk was worth the reward.
In 2019 I hope I have even more opportunity to tread into the unknown. I hope every opportunity is offered so I can take each with both hands. Here’s to another terrifying, tumultuous, riveting, exhilarating, and fun 365 days. Happy New Year.
P.S.- who knows. Maybe in 2019 I will make more than 3 blog posts in a year.